Feeling spiritual

Yesterday I jokingly told Graham that if he was going to think contstantly about passport requests and nothing else he might as well give cosmic ordering a go. It's not his cup of tea at all, but what's he got to lose? I don't think he bothered, but I must admit that I lay there in bed last night asking the cosmos for the huge favour that is delivering to us our passport requests before the end on next week. It's not such a huge favour really, we're destined to get them eventually, I'd just like the cosmos to hurry it up a little.

I'm not sure whether I entirely believe in this cosmic ordering, especially since it is a bit of a celebrity fad at the moment, but I have said before in this or one of my other blogs that when I truely decide on something I want things usually start falling into place to make it happen. It probably is all just positive psychology - wanting something so much makes you much more likely to take action to get it, to identify opportunities that normally would just pass over your radar and to not give up on it until you get it - you start to think of ways you can get round any obstacles that might pop up in the way.

Having said that I'm still pretty firm in my belief that we and everything in this world are all part and parcel of the same thing. We create god, we are god, all of nature is god and god is nature, we are all one interconnected entity. Everything is linked and as such if we find a way to bend the universe to our will then nearly anything is possible. So right now I've got to send some positive vibes through the cosmos to the person at CHC who is dealing with our file - urge him/her (I think it is a her) to pick up our file and work through it and send us our passport requests, before thinking of summer and ice cream and picnics and holidays and Friday night out on the beer with her friends.

From Pantheism to Hinduism. I've just finished reading Cloud Atlas, a book very much based on the idea of interconnectivity through the years, on reincarnation. There's a poem in it by Ralph Waldo Emerson that really speaks to me. I've never come across it before but I expect it's very famous - I'm not a bit intelligent when it comes to poetry but I know what I like when I read it.

Brahma
If the red slayer think he slays,
Or if the slain think he is slain,
They know not well the subtle ways
I keep, and pass, and turn again.

Far or forgot to me is near,
Shadow and sunlight are the same,
The vanished gods to me appear,
And one to me are shame and fame.

They reckon ill who leave me out;
When me they fly, I am the wings;
I am the doubter and the doubt,
And I the hymn the Brahmin sings.

The strong gods pine for my abode,
And pine in vain the sacred Seven;
But thou, meek lover of the good!
Find me, and turn thy back on heaven.

Another test

Again pretty accurate.

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

All work and no play? Never!

I've been pretty busy at work, which has been good - I've been enjoying it. But I'm taking time out to do a few fun quizzes for an hour - I blame Clare's blog for leading me to the site.

So here are my results:

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain. People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

You Are 29 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your brain is always looking for the connections in life. You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first. You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker. You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

The Five Variable Love Test

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise. Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself. You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books. You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life. You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world. A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What Time Of Day Are You?

You Are The Fool

You are a fascinating person who is way beyond the concerns of this world. Young at heart, you are blissfully unaware of any dangers ahead. You are a true wanderer - it has be difficult finding your place in this world. Full of confidence, you are likely to take a leap of faith. Your fortune: You are about to embark on a new phase in your life. This may mean changing locations, jobs, friends, or love status. You are open about what the future will bring, and free of worry. You have made your peace with fate, and you're ready to start down your new path.

What Tarot Card Are You?

And now I'm bored of that and should get back to work!

Playing the waiting game

We're back to playing the waiting game but it's not that hard. After some panic with Royal Mail over whether or not they delivered our documents, and whether or not CHC received our medical results we are in a position again now where our fate is left up to the officer in charge of our file.

I'm hoping that the wait for passport requests won't exceed 2 months, which would make it the end of August. Then we could personally deliver our passports to the High Commission in London and pick them up 2 weeks later with the visas in them. Then we can spend a fortune on getting a last minute flight and be in our rental place in Vancouver by the week beginning 11th September, so we won't waste any money on that.

I've told my bosses and am just waiting to have a chat with them before I hand in my resignation proper. It looks likely that my last day of work here will be the 1st September, so I really hope that we don't have to wait for our passport requests much beyond that. Of course, worse case scenario is that we don't hear anything till October, hang around in Bristol unemployed, and either lose the apartment in Vancouver or pay for it even though we're not there. It'll hardly be the end of the world if that happens but it won't make for very happy times either.

I'm trying to put it out of my head for now as there's nothing I can do about it. I don't feel excited or nervous about going, I'm not even sure that I'm mentally prepared for it at all. But from past experience this is the way it works with me - emotionally I don't deal with anything until it is actually happening. It's the same when I go on holiday - I don't get excited about it, I just enjoy it when I get there. So I'll either enjoy it or get totally stressed out and become an emotional wreck once I step onto Canadian soil! Graham's the opposite I think, he is so anxious and impatient to get out there that he can concentrate on little else - it's all setting up offshore bank accounts, clearing the house as much as possible and selling what we can, staring longingly at katkam, checking his bank account obssessively to see whether the bankers draft has been cashed (the final fees payment to CHC) etc.

This Tuesday marked mine and Graham's 5th year together - that's pretty good going, hey? We didn't do anything special, but we'll be going out for a meal and drinks tomorrow night to celebrate. It also marked 2 years since CHC started processing our application for permanent residence. It's taken so much longer than we thought, but I still can't comprehend how people must feel who have just started their application now, knowing that their dream is at least 4 years away.

Sitting alone in his room, Oral Roberts suddenly realized that pianists collect the souls of extraterrestials

I have been having fun with a random sentence generator at - it's likely to be a barrel of laughs until I get bored with it in about 15 minutes.

"I read in the newsgroup "alt.sex.bag ladies " that the rock stars are worse than Vax users."

"Aliens are better looking than slime balls."

"Only a hairsplitter would insist that the guidance counselors are expected to become tenors."

But some of the random sentences are very enlightened:

"Turtles disguise themselves as mobile home owners."

"Idiots are reincarnated as soap opera stars."

"Ghouls raise and train ogres."

"Unlike in years past, today's copy machine repairmen prefer the company of gerbils."
Ok. Maybe not